A Gay Man Likes a Woman

In the middle of the night in a resort beach, where everyone  is having fun. I'd like to be alone and savor the moment. The wind that touches my skin is cold, it lingers through my soul. The wave's sound is audible, it tells me how alive the water from the sea. I can feel the sand's smoothness as I removed my slippers from my feet. I loved how it comforts my sole. I decided to lay down. Saw the moon peaking from the clouds. It gives me a refreshing feeling as I feel the presence of nature.

I am Shayne, a single woman. Who everyone believes I haven't had a relationship with anyone yet. But, they are wrong. I had a romantic relationship before, but we fell out of love. We ended up being friends, but when he found someone new, we became strangers again. He deleted me on his friend list on Facebook and stopped any form of communication we had. Now, I am not looking for anything, I am just waiting for something. I just came here to unwind and enjoy, like anyone else.

We were about of 21 heads in the beach. They were friends and friends of friends. I was invited to be there by a male friend who isn't that close to me. I accepted the invitation for I want to escape from a toxic world, I would love to chill for a while. I am not close to everyone. Barely know them. Out of 21 persons, I am only friends with I guess 6 of them.

At the middle of the night, the group has been clustered based on what activities they would want to do. Others would rather watch TV inside the room, others would drink an alcoholic drink at the seashore, others would rather sleep and I would just want to listen at the side of those who were drinking and speak when I feel the need to and laugh when someone throws a jest. I myself got tempted of alcohol. I then tried, but of course with moderation. Others got tipsy already. Someone turns on a lively music. They were dancing at the beat of it. People who were left sane despite of the effect of alcohol was four and myself, a total of five.

One who were there was Jena, who is in a relationship with her long time boyfriend. They are now down to their 6years relationship. Then, Bella, who is single at that moment, she just broke up with her ex boyfriend. Then, Xyra who is a No Boyfriend Since Birth lady. Then, there is Reno, who is a bisexual. He had a boyfriend and a girlfriend before. He was the one who invited me to be in that occasion. We are not that close. I treat him as a friend, nothing else. We all work in a same company. We are all officemates, in short. When Reno invited me to join them, I wasn't thinking any malice because of the fact that everyone thinks he is a gay. He might just want me to be there and nothing else.

As the night progress, everyone seems to have so much fun with the alcohol, the sound and of the cold weather that makes everything almost calm. Out of nowhere, when they were dancing on the side. I acknowledged Reno's way of dancing. It was good. He was enjoying the beat of music and it was evident on his movements. I told him, "hey, you danced so nice! You are indeed a gay!" With a smile on my face since I was just fooling a round. He then replied, "gay? Would you like me to kiss you?" His friends screamed. Felt giddy. I was surprised. My eyes dilated. My mouth zipped. He walks towards me. He touches my neck, his right hand at my nape, he pulled me towards his direction and tempted to kiss me, but I refused. Bella and Xyra, screamed for they felt some malice on it. As I have refused to receive that kiss from Reno, he got stoned. Didn't move for like a minute or two. I noticed it. I then asked Jena to come with me to the rest room and I want to pee and for me to escape that awkward moment. On our way to the comfort room, Jena asked me, "What if Reno likes you?" I then said, "What? He is a gay, remember?". Then I entered the comfort room to avoid anymore follow up questions and reactions from her.

We went back to them. I saw Reno and Bella were talking from afar. I went back to my seat, on where I was seating before we left. Bella and Reno walk towards as to where we were. Bella said, "Hey Reno, do you have something to say to Shayne?" And I was wondering what it would be. I waited curiously and patiently. Everyone was waiting as well. Bella and Xyra look like they know something that Jena and I don't. Bella and Xyra telling Reno to say it, because I am waiting. He then said, "I like you Shayne". I am surprised knowing a bisexual, previously had a 3years homosexual relationship genuinely like me. I didn't know what to say. I was trying to hide a smile on my face. Bella asked me, "What can you say Shayne?" I answered with few seconds of silence and then utter, "I don't know". I can see on Reno's face how drunk he was. It is hard to believe what he was saying, but on the way he say it, I saw how genuine he was.

I escaped. I went to the room. Fixed myself to go to sleep. I left them at the seashore. I want to forget the night. I hoped that the next morning, Reno and his friends will forget about what happened. But, as the morning comes and the effect of alcohol in their body subside, Reno changed. He becomes sweet. I then, realized he was indeed true of his feelings towards me.

I gave him the chance he wanted. After 7 months of courtship, we became couple. He became a real man. Not gay. Not bisexual. He never planned of liking me at all as he said to me before and I never planned of liking him back because of his past, but if you are meant for each other, the past doesn't matter anymore. I did not change him. Love changed him. He showed me that "something" that I am waiting, looking and longing for. It was unknown, but I know it was missing and it was him.