My Ex Something.

I don't know where exactly to start. But I really want to write what I feel.
I don't know what went wrong. But everything we had were gone.
I can't remember how we started as friends. But why we became strangers again has stuck in my mind.
I am not sure why saying hello is so hard now. But the eagerness of starting a conversation is within me.
You were once my textmate. But now, I no longer get a message from you.
You were once my friend that almost turns out to be my lover. But now, it looks like that we are no longer friends and will never be a lover.
We used to let each other know what we are doing. But now we have no more idea what both of us are doing with our lives.
You made me feel happy. But now, you are crushing my heart because you are nowhere to be found.
Your existence was my happiness before. But now all I hope is to feel your presence again.
I can't help it sometimes, but to go back to our conversations a year ago. But all it gives me is only sadness, and wondering why it has to come to an end.
I was the first who fell in love. But now, I came to a realization that I was a fool to allow myself to fall for someone who doesn't love me and will never love me back.

Now, I am in prisoned with the memories we had.
I am still hoping someday you'll hit your head and realized you also love me.
I am wishing you'll make a move to have me back again in your life.
I am praying you'll notice my absence and realize how stupid you are by letting me go.
But when my hope, wish and prayer comes true, I am not sure what to do.
My heart would probably be glad for a while. But will make sure to never be fooled again.

I want you to know that I loved you but you never loved me.
You made me feel unwanted when all I want is for you to like me.
My judgement towards you could be totally wrong. But what I felt is what I want to write.
You have too much pride that being sweet with me looks so hard for you. But I understand that and it didn't stop me from loving you before.

But I am done and will be moving on now from the person who have never been mine.
There was never an us and there will never be an us, it was always you and me.
You are an ex to me. Not an Ex Boyfriend. But an Ex Something.