I Am Not Strong Enough

When I was a child, my parents were always been busy with their lives. My father is an OFW (Overseas Filipino Worker) who works in Saudi Arabia since I was a fetus or not even been planned to be born. My Mother is a self employed. She handles a different kind of business. Because of that, I have learned to be independent in an early age. I never rely on my parents. I have always been the strong one. I don't study hard, but at the end of each school year, I make sure to bring a bacon at home.
Now that I am old enough, I felt like I am not that strong enough. I think I need to be stronger. And the only difference is that I have learned not to rely only on my own. God is always at my back. Being the eldest now, I need to put all my trust to God that I can do all things with the strength He gives me. (Philippians 4:19). God never promised an easy life here on earth. This is a battlefield. However, I strongly believe that whatever that struggles I may have on this earth, it is not worthy of the reward that God has prepared for me. (Romans 8:18). I know in due time, God will reveal all His plans for me. Jesus, continue to join me on this journey. Wipe out these tears and show me hopes. My heart may howl, but You are surely not deaf not to hear it. My soul may be wounded, but I know soon all this pain will vanish because of Your love that heals. Thank you for the never ending strength that you're giving me. I love You!!

Posted on Instagram on Dec 11, 2017