To Be Like YOU

To be like You

I am the total opposite of you. Why do I say so? Because Your love is beyond my capability. I can’t think of anyone else on this world who can do such things You did. I have seen Your struggles and heard the pain You went through. In contrast, I have also seen your love and limitless kindness You can give. My mind is in awe as I read Your promises. Your expectations towards me are always good even if I have been disobedient. Hearing Your Words are such a relief from every grief of my heart have experienced. You left me with a book of your love letters even if knowing that I may not read them all.

Now, let me ask You, “How to be You?” Or at least, act like You? Because of the facts that; I can not love those people who can not love me back, but you can. I can not extend help to those I know in my times of need, can not bestow me anything. I can not easily forgive those people who used to hurt me, unlike how You forgave those who hurts, ridicules and punishes You without any valid proof of wrongdoings. I cannot give my heart to anyone who is in my life, for I know someday they’ll leave. I can not rejoice in moment of despair for I thought the present is what matter the most, not knowing You are preparing my future with unlimited triumph with You. I can not be grateful at all times for the thinking that everything is still not enough. I cannot stay calm in times of the world being furious. And no, I can not be a good friend to a friend and how much more to a stranger? Unlike You who loved even the unlovable people and undeserved criminals. I know Your Words, but I tussle putting them into action.

I’d like to be like You. 
Loving despite the reality someone will always hates me and not be pleased of me. Let me understand that this world is not my home and I am a foreigner of this place where persecution could happen, but there is more than this after this journey. 
Joyful even if agony is present. Let me be aware that pain is Your way of making me feel Your presence and Your discipline. Let me rejoice in the way of showing me Your disciplinary action as my Father. 
Peaceful in spite of how miserable life goes. Let me focus on the light of this world, not on the darkness of how it could possibly get. Let me have the heart somewhat similar like Yours who was still be peaceful even in the times of tragic persecution. 
Patient regardless of how rude the people. Let me have the patient to those people who is unloving, reckless, irresponsible, injustice and ungodly for I know they are the people who need love the most. Soften my heart towards them and harden my heart towards my own pain. 
Kind despite of how sharp the tongue of the crowd is and how insensitive the people may get. Let me show them how to be courteous to represent You well. Let me have the courage not to speak at the peak of my emotions to show kindness in midst of mercilessness. 
Good even if the world is not. Let me have a pure heart to show in my actions Your teachings. Let the goodness be immersed into my wholeness to make it shown as natural aspect in spite of cruelty of humanity. 
Faithful regardless of how things don’t work out in the way I am expecting it to be. Let me be faithful in You for You are always faithful to a person who is faithless like me. 
Gentle in times of roughness of this world. Let me not have the heart that full of anger and bitterness for I know this does not honor You. Let me have noble heart to please You and those who follows You. 
Lastly, give me the self-control even if temptation is out of my control sometimes. Let me have Your strength, power and wisdom to conquer the opponent who tries to draw me far from You.

Everyday, I have uncertainties in mind if I can go on living by Your Word despite of all the disappointments. However, You never get tired of letting me know how You loved and still loving me despite of how imperfect I am and I may get. My love for You changes each time, but Your love for me is consistent as ever. I have failed You number of times, but You always gives me encouragement. I am unworthy of Your love, but You told me I am worthy of Your wholeness. My flaws are sneaking, but Your shame for me is in public. How can You simply love me if I am being unloving to you? I’d like to be like You, but I am holding on to who I am and not on who You are to me. I have to let go of myself and abide in You. So, help me endure the cross of my own flesh through Your Spirit. Help me to be like You through the fruit of the Holy Spirit.

Galatians 5:22-23 

Originally Posted on Facebook March 15, 2018